Our family lived for sixteen months in Arizona. We were so blessed to have found a townhouse in the same community as Grammie and Grandpa. It was a blessing to spend time with them but it was a difficult situation because we missed our church family and didn’t seem to find a good fit for that area.
The girls really felt it and we tried to find fun memories to take back to Texas after the contract expired. One thing I came up with was going to McDonald’s drive-through for ice cream shakes and a large Coke for me. I started paying the bill for the car behind us. And it became a game. When I paid for our snacks I would ask how much the check was for the car behind us. I had a $10.00 limit. I would tell the cashier to wait until I pull away then tell the next customer “Angles come from Texas.”
We did this almost every day and our girls loved it. They were in on one of mom’s secrets and they loved it. It was fun. We would talk about why I would do that and I would answer, “Because it’s fun!” They caught on and really got into it. They would be bummed if no one was behind us.
One day a college-age girl pulled up behind us. Her car looked worn-out and in my review mirror, she looked just as worn-out. I told the cashier I wanted to pay for her order. It was just a diet coke. I had one of the God talking to me at that moment and said, “Make it a chicken nugget Happy Meal with a large drink.”
When I pulled away she followed behind me out. Because of was traffic I couldn’t get away. She honked and pulled up next to me at the red light. She put down her passenger window and said, “That is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. I am down to my last $10.00 and I need gas. Angles really do care about us, right?”
“The ones from Texas do,” I said.
I guess it’s called “Paying it forward.” To me, that sounds like “lay-a-way!”
When we are grieving the loss of a loved one. A husband, wife, mother, father. A sibling, a baby or a 22 years-old daughter. It hurts. I mean IT HURTS!
I feel like the second year is more painful than the first. Sommer’s death has set in. She really is not coming home from a trip to the moon. Don’t get me wrong, I have that blessed assurance she is sitting at the banquet table in constant presence with the Lord. Prancing on streets of gold and a mansion that she doesn’t need to clean. That only happens in heaven and I can’t wait to join her when my day comes.
God will comfort us in our grief, but we must allow Him to. God is stretching me right now and it hurts. But, I do have hope one day it won’t hurt as much. I will always want our Sommer to walk through the door.
God promises “‘Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come into him and will dine with him, and he with Me.’
I have to walk this journey so that I may help others walk through their grief.
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God”
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
For God’s Glory!