When Sommer was about seven she needed heal cord lengthening surgery. I had no reservations about putting her under anesthesia. I had complete peace.
One night before the surgery I had a dream about Abraham and Isaac (Gen. 22) The next morning during my quiet time I heard the Holy Spirit ask, “Are you going to continue to trust me?”
I’ve always known our daughters were on “loan” to us. Our job was to raise them in the way they should go. We took them to Sunday School. Taught them to pray. Introduced them to Jesus as their Savior. Each of them accepted God’s grace and mercy at young ages and then the job of discipleship began.
I knew my babies were on loan but I didn’t know it was a short-term loan.
The night before her surgery I dreamt that I was Abraham and Sommer was Isaac and me, like Abraham obeyed and put Sommer on the wood pile and said, “I trust you with my baby.”
Sommer came through it and awoke to two lime green casts on her feet and halfway up each leg. She picked green because of Kermit the Frog not knowing the color would be lighter then the sample. I remember we joked that she would now glow in the dark for the next eight weeks.
I continued to believe that our daughters were a gift from God but that they were on loan and I still had a spiritual role to play in their lives. But I never really believed God would “call in the loan” before he called me home.
God wants to know if we’re willing to give up what we love to Him because He loves us much more. He wants us to trust Him with everything. Yes, even our adult children. Our most precious gifts.
Sometimes I don’t understand God or His ways. Have you ever felt this way? I don’t believe we are going to understand all His ways this side of heaven. Until then I will continue to believe God is good and He is in charge of everything in my life. Even if I don’t understand His ways. He is good.