I did something a couple of weeks ago and I am starting to regret it. I think.
I bought a new bathroom scale. A digital glow in the dark bathroom scale and I am miserable about it.
The scale within itself is not a bad thing it’s more about what I’ve turned the thing into…an idol.
It all started when my sweet husband came home from the gym frustrated. He has been working to live healthier. No sweets, no fast food and hitting the gym. Because of his hard work and not seeing the scale reflect his commitment I made an executive decision and ordered a new bathroom scale. I knew it was a bad idea when I clicked on the “buy” icon on my Amazon account but I wanted him to see his hard work and dedication was working.
You see a bathroom scale for someone else in my family is no big deal but to me, it is an enemy. The first time I stepped on it I was hooked. It was no longer a helpful motivator for my husband it became an obsession for me. I started weighing myself in the middle of the night. Three times a day. After I ate a sweet or a carbohydrate. I’ve turned into a crazy person. Who weighs themselves in the middle of the night? Right, a crazy person.
In Colossians, the bible tells us to set our minds on things above, not earthly things. I can’t set my mind on things above when my thoughts are stuck on what a bathroom scale reads. I am stuck in idolatry. It dictates what I eat, how I eat when I eat or if I eat.
Before I was in the hospital with pneumonia I worked with a trainer twice a week and worked out at home three days a week and I ate almost anything I wanted. I used my workout time as talking time with God. Walking on the treadmill or riding a stationary bike motivates me to have chats with God. Running turns me into a beggar. “Please God don’t let me trip and do a George Jettson in front of all ten of these people.”
As I rest and recover vigorous exercise is not on the calendar. Don’t get me wrong, my mind tells me to get up and go-go-go. My body tells me “I don’t think so!” This is just a season of my life, thankfully it’s not a lifetime.
Being consumed by what a bathroom sclae reads is not in step with what God commands me to do.
Philippians 4:8 New International Version (NIV)
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
These are not gentle little suggestions these are commands. It’s training. Life changing. If my thinking does not line up with God’s ways then I am lost in my own self-centeredness. My obsession. My idolatry. This does not please God. I am His. I am His beloved. I am a child of God. He loves me. My family loves. My dear friends love me. I don’t need to find a false sense of love from a digital glow in the dark bathroom scale.
I think I’ll put it in the closet.