“If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I’d walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.” Author Unknown.
Sommer was 22 ½ the day she died. So young. Too young really. Every day since her death I have walked in a fog. In a tunnel of grief. The pain of losing someone so young and wonderful has clouded my vision, and at times I have felt unaware of what is going on around me. Someone might be talking to me and I am miles away. In a vacuum of grief. I have been blinded at times by pain and grief that I simply can not see God. I can’t feel God. Though I know He is always with me. Whispering in my ear:
“I love you.”
“I’ve got you.”
“I am bringing you through this season.”
This season may be a lifetime. I believe that today is going to be better than yesterday and tomorrow better than today. I have hope. I have hope in grief.
There are days I think this is all just a bad dream and she is off on a missionary trip and will come home in a few months or a year. And I would love to bring her home again.
But the thing is I know she is home. Eternal home. No tears. No discouragement. No favoritism. No rejection. No disappointments. Just pure love and pure joy.
I read this today from “Our Daily Bread” and want to share it with you:
“In Luke 24, tow disciples, confused and brokenhearted after Jesus’s death, didn’t realize they were walking with their resurrected Teach Himself, even as He explained from Scripture why the promised Savior had to die and rise again. Only when He took bread and broke it was it revealed that this was Jesus. (v.30-31) Although the followers of Jesus had faced death in all its horror when Jesus died, through His resurrection from the dead God showed them how to hope again.
Like those disciples, we might feel weighed down with confusion or grief. But we can find hope and comfort in the reality that Jesus is alive and at work in the world and in us. Although we still face heartache and pain, we can welcome Christ to walk with us in our tunnel of grief. As the Light of the world (John8:12), He can bring rays of hope to brighten our fog.” Amy Boucher Pye
Even when we grieve, we have a blessed hope in Jesus. He will bring light to my darkness. He will give me hope when I am confused and sad. He will help me to see His glory today and tomorrow. One day at a time.